After over a year of walking through the journey of infertility ‘quietly,’ Nate and I feel led to share our story in hopes of providing connection, fellowship, advice, and prayer for others traveling on such a heartbreaking road.
Part 3
Month after month
after month.
Nothing.
Basal temperature.
Ovulation tests.
Charts. Plans.
Hopes.
Doctor
appointments.
Tears. Dismay. Anger. Stress. Disbelief.
We felt it all.
We felt it all.
Then months into
our journey, God changed my heart.
“Wait with grace,
Elizabeth. While you wait, encourage others. Use this time wisely. Invest in
your marriage. Love, honor, and delight in Nate. Good will come of this.”
My change of heart was entirely the Lord.
Nate would agree that his heart was changed too.
Nate would agree that his heart was changed too.
Not saying that
our time of waiting wasn't hard. . . but it was different.
There were no longer huge swings of highs and lows.
But a steady stream of faith.
There were no longer huge swings of highs and lows.
But a steady stream of faith.
Because our hearts
were changed, we could weather the attacks that Satan threw at us. . . and
there were plenty.
I could write a novel on the uncouth things people have said to us,
none intentionally hurtful,
but so many speak without thinking . .
and, yet, we would literally laugh to ourselves when comments were made, identify that Satan was trying to crush our faith, and give glory to God that we could laugh at the comments.
To look back and realize that I have never cried, gotten upset, or even really angry over thoughtless comments people have made is totally the Lord. . .
Even though we were going through this incredibly tough journey. . . it was apparent daily that we were not going through it alone and that Jesus was by our side.
I could write a novel on the uncouth things people have said to us,
none intentionally hurtful,
but so many speak without thinking . .
and, yet, we would literally laugh to ourselves when comments were made, identify that Satan was trying to crush our faith, and give glory to God that we could laugh at the comments.
To look back and realize that I have never cried, gotten upset, or even really angry over thoughtless comments people have made is totally the Lord. . .
Even though we were going through this incredibly tough journey. . . it was apparent daily that we were not going through it alone and that Jesus was by our side.
Love you!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you decided to tell your story and glad you found the peace you needed on the journey. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteYou're AMAZING friend!!! I'm so glad you decided to share your journey! I love "wait with grace" :) What a mighty God we serve!
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