Friday, March 8, 2013

12 Our Journey: Part 1

After over a year of walking through the journey of infertility ‘quietly,’ Nate and I feel led to share our story in hopes of providing connection, fellowship, advice, and prayer for others traveling on such a heartbreaking road.

Part 1
I  have always wanted to be a wife and a mother. I never wanted fame, success, a business, or anything of the sort. I wanted a white picket fence, the June Cleaver 1950s life, and dinner on the table when my husband got home from work.

In high school, I was voted most likely to be a “Memorial” mom.
In college, I loved, doted on, and cared so much about a group of guy friends that they called me Mom.
Fast forward a couple of years. . .
In November 2011, I thought I was pregnant.
We weren't “trying” but we weren't “not trying.”
I remember taking the pregnancy test, waiting those 3 minutes and praying, “Lord, please let this be positive. . . I can’t imagine waiting another month now that I think/hope I am pregnant. I don't think I am ‘built’ to wait another month.”

And it was positive!

Overjoyed doesn't even begin to describe how we felt!
Nate was researching car seats that night and I was planning the nursery.
We were so so thankful!
We told our families.
We planned.
We rejoiced.
And then just a short time later.  . . we lost the baby.
{Part 2}
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  1. So sorry to hear about you have struggled with miscarriage. I have also struggled with this and so glad you are sharing about it, as it is a subject that is not talked about enough. I've shared our story about miscarriages and more on my blog and it has been part of my healing through the last three years.

  2. ahh sweet friend i am sorry for your loss but you can rejoice that one day in heaven you will know that sweet baby, praise Him for that. thank you for being open to sharing more with us, i will be praying for you and nate

  3. Oh Elizabeth, I am so sorry for your loss. Miscarriages are the worst :(
    On another note, God has put you on my heart the past 6 months & I have felt lead to pray for you, specifically about getting pregnant. I never emailed you/told you about it because I didn't know if you were trying, etc. But just know that I have been praying for you (and will continue to) Thanks for sharing your story with us. xoxo.

  4. Thank you for sharing what I know will be a very hard story to tell. I know so many people who have miscarried and it breaks my heart every time but hardest of all is those who hide it away rather than deal with those emotions....well done for being so brave.

  5. I had no idea you were pregnant in 2011. My heart hurts for you and Nate. there are NO TWO people i can think of who would be better parents than the two of you. i know you will be.............praying for you through this journey.

  6. I'm so sorry. The same thing happened to us - in fact I just blogged about it too. Sending you positive thoughts.

  7. I am so sorry to hear about your loss...It is a "club" that I never wanted to be a part of, but unfortunately I am. You see the positive test - you name your baby, you imagine your future, and then it gets taken away from you. Nothing hurts worse, this I know. Thank you for sharing...praying for and thinking about you guys.

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  9. Elizabeth - I am so sorry. You see the positive test and immediately plan and imagine for the future, the nursery, the name, what the baby will look like, what you will be doing when the baby is born...and then it gets taken away from you. It is a death, it is a loss. It's a "club" that I never wanted to be a part of, but unfortunately I am. Thinking about you guys and praying for you.

  10. There is hope at the end of the tunnel. We too struggled with infertility and did all the high-tech infertility treatments. We finally gave up on "biological" children and ended up adopting my son, who will be turning 21 years-old next month. I also experienced the pain of delivering, at full-term, a stillborn son. So, I understand your pain. It NEVER goes away, don't let anyone tell you that, but, you do find a way to live with the pain and it does ease in time. I wish you the best.

  11. so proud of you!! love you three to pieces!! xoxo marci


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